Frustrated, Disappointed: Fresh Start Part 3

So it has been 4 weeks since I started. One week was very exciting and positive, since, nothing. In fact, with the exception of my neck everything I am measuring is exactly the same. My neck is a 1/2 inch up.

I have tried to stick to my “just plain healthy” diet, but I have for the most part failed. I am getting increased my protein, my probiotics, The fitbit is on again off again. It just isn’t that comfortable when I sleep. Yes I know don’t wear it to bed, but then I forget to put it back on. I haven’t had any alcohol, no great loss there, as I don’t drink much anyway. I’ve stuck to soluble fibers. I only have one sugary thing a day, hard to give up my iced coffee from McDonald’s. Exercise has gotten harder with the heat. I’ve decreased carbs I think. Except for some oatmeal occasionally, which is supposed to be good. Fish hasn’t been a big winner, I just don’t really like it. So I guess I need to look at taking omega-3. I couldn’t do the apple cider vinegar. Intermittent fasting flew out the window. And the green tea has been rare. So what it boils down to is I am just lousy at change.

I am also finding change hard in the other thing in my life I was trying to improve, my spiritual routine. The last 2 or 3 days I have done next to nothing. I decided I am going to start over when I mess up. So today we are on day 1 again.

I just really question how capable am I at change. What do I need to do to make it more important to me? I’m just so frustrated. I feel like banging my head on a wall somewhere. Sigh…will I ever win?

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